For the last few months I have suffered excruciating pain whenever I stood or walked for more than a few minutes. It was very debilitating; I couldn’t do much of anything. Having a type A personality made it even more difficult. The ramifications of not getting healed are huge—loss of a planned hiking vacation out west, inability to maintain my garden and home. It produced great unknowns for my future, including moving and even ministry—and no one likes that feeling! Unfortunately I didn’t respond very well to my persistent dilemma. I found myself becoming discontent and complaining when God didn’t seem to hear my prayer. I’m not saying I became totally rebellious and angry at God. I know better than that. It’s just that I couldn’t seem to shake my negative attitude for long.
Well, after being miserable for way too long (stinking thinking never helps—it only heightens your misery), I finally just accepted my circumstances. I surrendered to my wonderful God who does know what He is doing. My prayer changed from “Please heal me” to “Please help me to endure this pain, Lord. Use it somehow for Your glory. Don’t let me waste the pain.” Immediately my joy and peace was restored!
Perhaps some of you would have liked to have heard that my great Physician performed a miracle and healed me immediately. But I propose to you, “Is that really the biggest miracle?”
Or would God sustaining me through the pain with joy and peace be a greater manifestation of His power? Perhaps, the better question would be:
Which miracle brings Him more glory?
I was presented with the same query back in 2008 when my husband’s cancer had metastasized. I remember the exact moment in time and place as I was grappling with the bad news. What would give God greater glory—healing or sustaining us with unexplainable joy and peace? The answer came immediately from God straight to my heart—the latter.
Remember that we are here for God’s glory, not our own. This will immensely help us to keep the right and eternal perspective, no matter our circumstances.
All has been heard; the end of the matter is: Fear God [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is] and keep His commandments, for this is the whole of man [the full, original purpose of his creation, the object of God’s providence, the root of character, the foundation of all happiness, the adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun] and the whole [duty] for every man. (Eccl 12:13 AMP)*
“Now show me your glory.” (Ex 33:18)**
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